Ever since i grow up, i never had people telling me and regulate my behaviour or my activity. Not even my parents. And now i feel im suffocating as i cannot do whatever i like. Even ffk-ing will get severe hammering. I have no upperhand in my life. I have people constantly grumbling and waiting to penalise me when i do wrong. Even my mistake is as petty as, hmm..ffking?

Even that will be a big deal as if the skies are being torn apart so the moon & stars can fall down and crash on to me.

What pride left for me as a big man? I am being treated like a delinquent who owe someone big bucks or murdered someone’s family. What is my value after all I did? I don’t feel i am being appreciated anymore. I don’t think my presence is valuable.

I think I am better off without a love which is hostile towards me. I hate hostility, I hate fights, I hate arguments, I hate being bitter. But why there’s people who constantly come to me and bringing me those bad vibes?

Can’t they understand the word NO? or they don’t ‘use their brains to analyse the situation’?

I think they dont understand.